All Messed up and Confused, but God!

Through the ups and downs, the back and forth, the wavering, the confusion, the not being enough, the lies, the fear of not, the people-pleasing, the judgment of others, the naysayers, the people using me in so many countless ways, the disappointment in myself, the suicide thoughts, the awful experiences of my ways and others putting me through, even the church hurt, I realized without trials, the...