But, I Can't Forgive Myself

I wish I could forget it all, but I can''t-the little child hiding in a tree, the fatherless and innocent searching for heroes, the runaway, married too young, divorced in a courtroom ruled by a secret organization, childless at twenty-five, believing the lies, the parties in darkness, seeing the world through swollen eyes, the suicidal child of God who looked for a daddy while only needing Daddy ...